Riga

Body is awareness of the mind, nervous system controls emotion by education, like a magnetic hard drive able to manipulate electricity by recording information, but ego reflects unconscious-sensation. 

Being born in spirit is the goal of every being, becoming self-aware opens doors of eternal perception, but personality opposes evolution of the psyche. Second birth awakes unconscious-sensation to fracture indoctrinated personality, followed by the third eye initiation to make connection between two hands of a single nervous system, harness the self and confer immortality.

Riga is a nice place to wonder for couple of days with many ancient building and beautiful churches, but it looks chaotic compare to Tallinn.

The male reincarnates the level of his own consciousness through external female, there is no one without the other, but what we become, depends on how strong is the nervous system. 

I am in Basilica of St. Peter, milestone of God's temple referring to Solar System to honor my mentor star and protector planet Jupiter.

Glimpses of enlightenment utilize the self and experiences love by freedom of the mind. That is how evolution ends, sensational-awareness harnesses desire and controls the mind by free will, but to experience other than tranquility of eternal existence must fall and reflect artificial reality. 

I often ask myself, bodily sensations define the mind or mind defines bodily sensations, but they happen at the same time. Emotion is light, and light is consciousness, but to make unconscious-sensation conscious must look inside instead of desiring the outer world. It feels like having experience and being experience at the same time, knowing inner before outer controlling the mind. To know your body before mechanical action is to become a creative human.

Last night I dreamed about being stamped out of Russia and entered my grandmother's house were someone was lying in a very strange rectangular opening at the end of the wall, looking like a coffin.

Family members were asking why am I late and when I looked inside there was my mother disintegrating. She takes my hand and I am about to fall in tears, but suddenly consciousness takes over and I awake. Mother symbolizes the level of sensational-awareness within child, the source of unconscious-reflection and the mind. She is not a fixed force, but volatile digital body of information that alters by evolution of original consciousness.

The dynamic self is the source of sensational vibration, ego supports frequency of unconscious-sensation. Maybe the stamp out of Russia is about my previous life that my mother represents in this life. Maybe her disintegration is about evolution of sensational-awareness to harness more light, until I AM THE SELF CONTROL THE MIND.

PM 3:35 and I went to Jurmala today, swimming in a salty and clear, but knee-high Baltic Sea...

The self is dreaming physical body they represent the same consciousness, hence for the self to awake physical body must die. Maybe that is why it is so difficult to make right decision at the crossroads between life and death.

People deeply affect each other by unconscious mind, and if your nervous system is not strong to recognize and repel incoming force, my thoughts could penetrate, vibrate and control your body. The habitual body of unconscious-sensation never has enough, she has no will for change, the level of self-awareness is her consciousness, but until strong enough must reincarnate.

I am flying back to Georgia today, missing sulfur bath, cocking, good wine and peaceful contemplation of the journey...

Tallinn

PM 5:30, and my ass is still frozen from steal chairs of Russian customs. After 5 h of detention without reasoning I finally pass through the border control. On the other hand, Estonian immigration was straight forward and easy, first impressions are positive.

There is no action without reflection, no mind without the body, no thought without the form, either body nervous system controls the mind or the mind manipulates bodily forms.

Evolution proceeds gradually, transmutation of ego into self-awareness is a long and painful process. Stronger the right hand of a single nervous system to harness emotion, less power of the ego over the left until fully reintegrates and I AM conferring spiritual identity.

Conscious & unconscious halves of a spiritual body have a single nervous system and the mind, power of one is weakness of another. Rational-mind evolves in expanse of ego until perceives the matrix from outside and leaves earthly dimension.

Unconscious-sensation recreates and maintains herself by habitual mind vs the level of self-awareness able to think rationally, altering one effects the other immediately. We feel the way we think and vice versa, until spiritual body consciousness is strong enough to support emotion and become self-aware.

Last night I smoked weed and it was interesting experience. Marijuana weakens sensational-awareness, emotion escapes, the outer world seems more real and it increases fear, but at the same time it is a good practice to see where are you on a path of spiritual evolution. 

On one hand, I AM experiencing my own unconscious-mind, and on the other oppose my own creation by personality. The conflict between two hands of the same nervous system manifests as male/female relationship in actual life. Rational-mind is a light body of a nervous system, unconscious reflection manifests as darkness of sensation, stronger the one weaker the other, until harmonize and reunite rational & habitual sides of a single psyche.

Either the self opposes his own unconscious creation by personality or controls manifestation. Either I AM reflecting weakness of my own spiritual body unconsciously or becoming self-aware and controlling the mind, both cannot happen at the same time. Either the self reincarnates his own consciousness by desire or evolution of I AM annihilates ego and harnesses the mind. 

Love is higher vibration of desire they represent the same energy, only sensational-awareness differs and stronger I AM higher frequency, to ignore desire is to lose love, but awake, experience and embrace. Life is about evolution of individual consciousness from animal to god, from endless reincarnations to awareness of a spiritual body.

St. Petersburg

Early in the morning by overnight bus I arrived in St. Petersburg, my legs are swollen, too tired to walk and until PM 3 could not check in the hostel...

Today is some kind of an annual festival, people surfing Neva River dressing in funky clothes and I thought what a nice idea will be to use it as a massage to end the war, but not enough courage, empathy or determination.

The body is awareness of the mind, mind is body nervous system in motion. To control the mind sensational-awareness is necessary, but until I AM strong to master my own dynamic force, thinking by images of the body. 

Two hands of a spiritual body have a single nervous system and the mind, the unconscious-sensation is power of emotion over its own body nervous system and sensational-awareness is opposite. 

After the third eye initiation conscious-persona finds its own unconscious-sensation and begins the process of reintegration until masters the mind.

I slept almost 20 h to recover from last night's bus ride, walking through this amazing city full of beautiful architecture and history. "In capsule" hostel is not too bad with enough privacy to do your things, but Russian hostels have strict rules about drinking alcohol, even beer is prohibited.

There is no self-awareness without reintegration with unconscious-sensation, stronger sensational-awareness more conscious reflection, finer body perception and greater creative imagination. Evolution of consciousness transmutes unconscious-sensation into self-identification, until activates full potential of a celestial brain, sensational-awareness and self-awareness evolve at the same time.

I just found the eye of Horus on a red string at the entrance of the summer palace, symbolizing the center of a celestial consciousness. Angel at the square pointing her right hand up to heaven, while the left hand is holding a snake, they must harmonize to master the mind and the entire universe obeys. Polarization of a single nervous system reflects into two hemispheres of the brain, but the third eye is the bridge to make connection and reintegrate. 

The self is like eternal mind between two hands of a single body, the unconscious-sensation is his awareness in a state of reflection, sensational-awareness operating as conscious-personality. Weaker self-awareness darker unconscious-sensation vs evolution of a celestial consciousness until I AM strong enough to recognize myself and control the mind.

I am at St. Isaac’s cathedral and cannot have enough of it. Russians could never built anything like this it was a French man and entire St. Petersburg has been designed by European artists.

The self reflects by fear, actually we fear ourselves and this is important to realize. Everything is a reflection of myself and that is why at the glimpses of enlightenment entire world falls back into my consciousness and annihilates dreaming personality.

Knyaz Yusupov palace is a feast for sensations, deeply touching my soul with exquisite elegance and charm. Maybe that is how life ends on earth, maybe my spiritual journey has just begun to learn how to manifest from eternity beauty and love?

AM 7:45, going to be another rainy day, but I am still under impression of Yusupov Palace and their beautiful females, the source of creative imagination.

The self is pure energy of action, emotion does not know wrong and right, the level of sensational-awareness gives direction. Female consciousness defines manifestation by imagination, body-awareness the mind, but until I AM, her nervous system is strong to control emotion, becomes unconscious and creates habitually.

Enlightenment is pure field of love and freedom of the will,

creation and experience happens at the same time, but strong nervous system does not fear experience, able to restore equilibrium by will. Stronger I AM to harness emotion, more sensational-awareness and greater creative imagination to find balance between body-consciousness & unconscious-mind.

As if the seed raises from the soil and female gives birth, the unconscious-sensation is naturally creative, but to become sensationally aware and control manifestation is to consciously create your own reality. The male manifests creative potential of its own female consciousness by the unconscious mind, but stronger becomes more beautiful design.

Walking morning streets of St. Petersburg, thinking about 1917th revolution and when you swing the pendulum of life on one side like in imperial Russia you will create Stalin. 

For prosperous and peaceful society, common wealth of the nation must be distributed equally. It does not mean that you cannot become successful and rich to enjoy the life you like, just provide necessary care for others to stay in peace and develop naturally. To understand the cosmic low of balance that swings pendulum of time is to maintain harmony between polar opposites. 

I have met at one glance irresistible female in Winter Palace, emotion escaped and I lost sensational-awareness unable to perceive beauty of Hermitage. I was following her strong and slender legs instead of knowing myself, until nervous system takes over and reverts attention.

The level of self-awareness experiences herself by the unconscious-mind, but craving converts into love when I AM being strong enough to harness the heart and know the bliss of my spiritual body.

The self has built the house from inside out that has no door to come out. The mind never leaves its own body. Perception vs reflection, either sensational-awareness harnesses the self and perceives true nature of the matrix, or supports digital construct by the unconscious-mind. To transmute sensational darkness into the light of consciousness is to incorporate full capacity of a celestial brain as if at the glimpses of enlightenment.

Going to Peterhof today, thinking about fear & aggression as two pole of unconscious reflection, and how do they operate?

Gender persona could not perceive desire of male as fear of the same female, but to harmonize emotion/sensation under a single will is to know your essence in totality. I AM the self and I AM persona, I AM unconscious-sensation and I AM Gela Kirvalidze in this life, but to know who I REALLY AM, must harness the self and reunite conscious/unconscious halves of my spiritual body.

Today is my last day in St. Petersburg, tomorrow going to Tallinn. 

The unconscious-sensation is instinctive animal and could repeat the same desire eternally. More she does stronger addiction, but I AM HER CONSCIOUSNESS and only evolution of self-awareness alters perception of reality. 

What is sensational-awareness, asking myself all the time, but the word itself explains everything. 

The sensational-awareness is when you are aware of your own sensation, impossible without harnessing the self and the mind. Sensational-awareness comes into focus when her nervous system is strong enough to revert fire of desire and enlighten MAGNETIC FIELD OF I AM as if day over the night.

If unconscious-emotion creates sensations, evolution of sensational-awareness consciously decides and enlightenment makes perfect sense, when you harness the self, freedom and love reunites. Does not matter what you sense if you are aware, I AM SENSATION controls emotion by freedom of perception. 

There is no sensational-awareness without the light of consciousness that's why it is so difficult to achieve. Either unconscious self creates bodily sensations or sensational-awareness utilizes the self and controls the mind.

What would you do if master the art of reflection, exit the matrix or continue to experience yourself by will?

Vladimir

AM 5:35, going to Vladimir...

There is no rational-mind without consciousness of the body, dynamic seed requires static field to become self-aware. As if male desires female, the self must reincarnate until his own body consciousness is strong to recognize himself before desire and awake. If the moon outside symbolizes the level of self-awareness inside, the silver globe must be initiator of the third eye to evolve original consciousness until annihilates ego and harness the mind.

The self enters the Matrix by desiring mind, waters of life dramatically reduce frequency of the body. Light of love becomes ferocious animal, violence emerges from fear of darkness until finds ego and harnesses the mind. 

After last night's jumpy ride the sketch hostel seems blessing, but as we realize the essence experiences the Earth by physical body, allow life to happen and look at everything with curiosity like a child. Only problem is in life experiences accumulate over original consciousness by unconscious reflection and obscure true identity.

The unconscious-sensation reflects and reincarnates, but physical container could not tolerate eternal energy for long and disintegrates. When body exhaust awareness returns to the Moon Cave, but must reincarnate again until strong to overcome ego and awake. 

Mastered by exquisite carvings over white stone reminding the moon, Saint Demetrius church of 11th century is one of the most beautiful temples I have seen in Russia and I am going to Suzdal for a day trip.

Suzdal is the best town together with Sergiev Posad on a golden ring of Russia. Everywhere you look is something ancient and amazing, but painful to observe the process of restoration, painting them like Russian dolls or just whitewash centuries old cathedrals and buildings. At the end, Suzdal is cute little town with tiny river running through it, and I believe the most important temple in the heart of its Kremlin is dedicated to Goddess Ishtar, the Mother of the World, ancient Russians knew whom to worship.

AM 7:00, I am travelling back to Moscow today, spending two more nights in Russian Capital and to St. Petersburg by train. 

The self in a form of ego and I AM sensational-awareness push into different directions, he desires reincarnation, I AM longing for my own sensation as if Ramayana story in Hinduism.

What a day, at first there was a road accident standing 3 h. in traffic, after hostel was canceled in Moscow and I had to find another one that was so terrible I barely slept last night, but tonight I go to St. Petersburg.

Yaroslavl

Going to Pereslavl Zalesky, but could not stay there for a night, perhaps travel farther north to Rostov or Yaroslavl.

My train leaves in 2 h, so I have time to visit Sergiev Posad again and the views from here are fantastic. Fairy tale gnome town reflecting the blue sky, colors match and wave into each-other, proportions and symmetry reminds Venice and I suspect Italian masters had to do something with building this monastery.

There is no awareness without sensation, no nervous system without the body, to become aware must sense, but the unconscious-sensation and her awareness must harmonize and merge to harness the self and direct the mind.

I use to ponder sensation and her consciousness relationship, thinking about making connection, but they never separate representing a singe spiritual body. The unconscious-sensation is weakness of self-awareness, but after the third eye initiation evolves until strong enough to reintegrate, annihilates ego and harnesses the mind.

Emotion is active and sensation is receptive, but they never separate, what we call unconscious is power of emotion over her own sensation driving nervous system by the mind. On the other hand, waking body represents the level of sensational awareness able to control emotion and direct the mind. There is no rational mind without awareness of the body, but until conscious/unconscious harmonize spiritual body polarizes into day & night.

 

The unconscious-sensation represents lower vibration of original consciousness unable to control the mind, but to ignore her is to lose evolution potentiality, but awaken and reintegrate to leave the animal world behind.

Yaroslavl on Volga river is a beautiful setting, but Russian mentality spoils everything. Symphonic music at the parks, newly made pathways are already breaking down, no individuality or creative imagination and only scenic walks along Volga River and ancient churches make worth visiting this town.

Reflection is a two-way bridge, what we mind must feel, either unconscious-sensation manipulates ego or evolution of sensational-awareness harnesses the self and directs the mind. 

As if artist immortalizes particular sensation in the object of creation, what we call God must create and support diversity of manifestation, over her own body. Each and every seed raises from the Earth, but at the end they represent different forms of the same soil thriving into physicality.

Human sensations raise and fall, but particular creation becomes eternal until it continues existence. Michelangelo’s sensation creating David is alive until there is a David, as well as Mona Liza or any other marvelous creations of universal artists.

God knows itself in totality. To be self-aware does not mean not to have emotions, sensations or the mind. Why not to be angry if you know your bliss, why not to desire if you never lose eternity, able to control emotion by will.

Sergiev Posad

Weakness of original nervous system reflecting by the unconscious-mind is like animal having no awareness of her own body. 

The car needs fuel and driver for a safe passage. Human psyche operates the same, body is the car, emotion is fuel and nervous system is a driver, but until sensational-awareness is strong dynamic force dominates.

Who drives the car ego or I AM, and to safely navigate the body her nervous system must evolve to harness emotion and direct the mind. 

Two hands of a single spiritual body operate as unconscious-sensation vs conscious-personality and both need light of the heart to operate properly. 

Weakness of the right hand reflects by the left, by losing the mind we lose awareness of the body, but nervous system remains within to activate and evolve until refines unconscious reflection into self-identity. 

The consciousness is sensational-awareness, more we have greater self-awareness, but there is no sensational-awareness without harnessing emotion. The unconscious-sensation vs conscious-persona represents two hands of a single body, but until they make connection and harmonize I AM unable to master the mind. There is no self-awareness without sensational-awareness they evolve at the same time.

Thanks god my plan for Vladimir was interrupted, otherwise I would miss Sergiev Posad, beautiful and ancient monastery 1:35 h train ride from Moscow. Crosses over the crescent Moon adore domes of delicately built temples and although it is already half pass ten, I see the silver Moon above.

Is life about graduation from the Moon College symbolizing weakness of self-awareness by opening and straightening individual consciousness?

Spiritual initiation begins by awakening of unconscious-sensation over conscious-personality followed by the third eye initiation until they balance under a single will. To harmonize spiritual body and control the self must activate first and that's what Christian Churches do not teach. 

Moscow

Flying over Russia, towns look like computer system panels. As if unconscious humanity morphing itself into conscious societies manifests intelligent design of the Matrix on to the Earth.

I use to see the self as perfect being standing above creation, but he has no existence without reincarnation. There is no female without male, no body without the mind, but to control thinking sensational-awareness is necessary. 

Body over the mind vs mind over the body, polarization of a field requires a single I AM to fluctuate between day & night, until strong enough to harmonize two hands, harness the self and control the mind.

Electric emotion cannot separate from its own magnetic sensation, unconscious-mind vibrates its own body, until her nervous system evolves to sense the self before reflection.

The unconscious-sensation reflects by fear until I AM harness desire, and loses true identity. Stronger fear greater authority, we often act the way others want us to see, and there is no individuality without evolution of the will. 

I AM nervous system of my spiritual body polarize into unconscious-sensation vs conscious-personality, but connection never breaks. Stronger I AM more emotion reintegrates and higher frequency all the way to enlightenment.

As if computer electricity, celestial nervous system needs energy for operation, more it is greater capacity culminating at the state of enlightenment. What celestial nervous system could not harness must excrete, and to ignore unconscious-mind by educated personality is to stagnate evolution of a psyche.

There is a symbol of the Sun with the mirror at the center inside St. Basel Cathedral with twelve zodiac signs symbolizing self-reflection and Saturn's Hexagon carved on the wall responsible for evolution of humanity. The Sun awareness is I AM THE SELF to perceive the world by smile, the Moon reflects true identity by the unconscious-mind.

As if human heart between two hands of a physical body, the self is eternal mind between two hands of a spiritual body. I AM liquid consciousness operating like a scale, mercurial fluid turns into muddy river of life, until two hemispheres harmonize, power of one is weakness of another. 

I AM eternal, desire never ends but creation is unconscious until nervous system is weak. As if the Moon reflects the light of the Sun from the Earth, unconscious-sensation reflects weakness of self-awareness by ego, until the third eye activates and becomes solid enough to harmonize and annihilate male/female under a single will.

There is no essence without awareness, no energy without information no body without the mind, ego reflects memory fields stored within unconscious-sensation vs educated personality. External female represents the level of sensational-awareness within male, stronger it is clearer vision and higher creative imagination. Experience vs learning, unconscious-sensation vs conscious-personality to make connection, reintegrate. 

I do not know who I AM, until overcome ego and harness the self, but sensational-awareness cannot evolve overnight. Spiritual body is like a light bulb with the nervous system as wire inside. Stronger wire higher frequency and lighter spiritual body, but must excrete what could not utilize, either ego reflect unconscious body or I AM utilizing the self to control the mind.

I sense hunger for truth in Russian society and this is encouraging. I thought there will be police everywhere checking people, but I do not see them at all, only alcoholic beggars and they can be aggressive. Females full of karma walking night streets of Moscow, can you imagine what you are getting yourself into by desiring sensational darkness of others and that’s what DC symbolizes in astrology. 

Dynamic seed requires soil to become self-aware, ego has no consciousness of his own body and seeks for a shelter. Physical body could not maintain passionate force for long, must reincarnate and die until I AM sensational-awareness is strong.

We all look like human and people are longing equality, but in evolutionary system can’t be uniformity. Evolution takes time, levels of consciousness reflect its own reality, but lower frequency consciousness could not enter higher unless it falls on the same level. If someone affects your behavior you could not leave the matrix, it is about raising strong when everybody wants to put you down.

If you knew power of the self, accept your weaknesses without asking questions it is like reactive airplane without direction. The sensation falls by fear and fear is the biggest enemy of humanity, unconscious-sensation raises by harnessing emotion but falling & reflection happens simultaneously.

Light revels colorful and vibrant world, darkness is only one color black. Light is self-awareness, darkness is unconsciousness. Light is beauty and creativity, light is love, darkness is survival and depression. Light is happiness, darkness is fear and aggression, but to know the light must be strong enough to harness the mind.

Pay attention how people dress, clothing and style reveals the inner world…

I found nice Cathedral built before revolution, and as I light up a candle to thank God for initiation, bells start ringing. I thought he must be watching me all the time, but coming out a ginger man crossed my path, symbolizing negative forces of the universe protecting ego and hindering evolution of the psyche.

Today is my last day in Moscow, tomorrow going to Vladimir...